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Wednesday, June 11, 2008

this feeling

it's a sense that you like every curve of their smile. that their eyes would take you into another world. that their laugh will end the world hunger ... well, at least ours. that you'd gladly do their dishes. that you'd cook for hours for them in a hot kitchen. like it was meant to be. and it's also a sense of knowing that they're not perfect but it's okay. really.

and when you're through with it, shaken up and awaken, every fiber in your body would ache. as if you're addicted to their presence. and without all of those dirty dishes, your existence somehow meaningless. the sun would shine but you can only feel darkness seeping into your hollow soul. and deep down, you'd die the most painful death.

but if asked, upon resurrection, wether you'd do it again, going through the roller coaster of emotions, risking another depression lingers on your doorstep. with some unexplained reasons, you'd agree. maybe it's the elated feeling of belonging. maybe it's the unconditional acceptance. maybe it's the comfort of completion. maybe it's the dirty dishes. maybe you're insane. whatever it is, it makes you have enough courage to risk dying again. you'll probably torch yourself with fire, burn so bright, and fall to the ground to become ashes. you don't care. you'll die harder.

. at 11:32 AM

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